Traditional as it seems, I made another 3 wishes for my 22nd birthday. I like it when I make wishes that involve rather determination than luck, so I can actually work on them.
It was valentine's day, and I went out for shisha (hope I don't get addicted! but people smoke anyway, isn't it nicer to actively smoke and enjoy shisha than to take in 2nd hand smoke?!) in the north region of Lyon with a friend I made acquaintance with but didn't hang out very often last semester. We got along well to begin with, further I found we are into similar kinds of music and we have a likeness of enjoyment in life. Then I thought that it's sometimes really up to me to make an effort of maintaining friendships, especially given the environment (it's hard to keep seeing a friend if you don't try here, or maybe, everywhere?), I should start to take the initiative to invite and to get to know people.. just like the way I decided to offer my neighbor a cup of tea, or to ask these sweet girls to movies on my birthday. Maybe I'd find it annoying from time to time as I did when "dealing" with people, but still, I'd like to try to improve myself in better understanding of the way how people react and get along with each other. I'm no longer a child, neither a sullen teenager who'd ask too much of the world. I'm not perfect, no one is, more truly the society itself. If I do start working this year, it is essential that I realize thoroughly I have to put up and accept the existence of imperfectness. I regret if I was only saying for it 2 years back, but disposition does go before position. So it is, one of my 3 wishes, one of my determinations, to be more skillfully, socialized. And I was happy tonight to hear this one friend said: "I'm lucky to have found you."
The other thing I'd like to write a bit is that when we talked about romantic acts, I suddenly realized that it was a sad thing when I decided to forget everything in a romance, but the truth is that rather, hatred stayed a little longer, the taste of the tiniest joy that should always stay should die first. I cannot tell. Perhaps by the time I realized it, I started a new life.
It was valentine's day, and I went out for shisha (hope I don't get addicted! but people smoke anyway, isn't it nicer to actively smoke and enjoy shisha than to take in 2nd hand smoke?!) in the north region of Lyon with a friend I made acquaintance with but didn't hang out very often last semester. We got along well to begin with, further I found we are into similar kinds of music and we have a likeness of enjoyment in life. Then I thought that it's sometimes really up to me to make an effort of maintaining friendships, especially given the environment (it's hard to keep seeing a friend if you don't try here, or maybe, everywhere?), I should start to take the initiative to invite and to get to know people.. just like the way I decided to offer my neighbor a cup of tea, or to ask these sweet girls to movies on my birthday. Maybe I'd find it annoying from time to time as I did when "dealing" with people, but still, I'd like to try to improve myself in better understanding of the way how people react and get along with each other. I'm no longer a child, neither a sullen teenager who'd ask too much of the world. I'm not perfect, no one is, more truly the society itself. If I do start working this year, it is essential that I realize thoroughly I have to put up and accept the existence of imperfectness. I regret if I was only saying for it 2 years back, but disposition does go before position. So it is, one of my 3 wishes, one of my determinations, to be more skillfully, socialized. And I was happy tonight to hear this one friend said: "I'm lucky to have found you."
The other thing I'd like to write a bit is that when we talked about romantic acts, I suddenly realized that it was a sad thing when I decided to forget everything in a romance, but the truth is that rather, hatred stayed a little longer, the taste of the tiniest joy that should always stay should die first. I cannot tell. Perhaps by the time I realized it, I started a new life.
posted by Kay @ 2:18 AM
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